Clinical Trials kapualani59: A Sheltered Life Chapter 11

Friday, November 25, 2011

A Sheltered Life Chapter 11




WHAT DOES SHELTERED MEAN

shelter verb
shel·tered shel·ter·ing
Definition of SHELTER
transitive verb
1: to constitute or provide a shelter for : protect Most parents want to shelter their children from pain and sadness.to prevent their children from experiencing pain and sadness
2: to place under shelter or protection to be in a place that provides protection from danger, bad weather, etc.
3: to protect (income) from taxation
intransitive verb: to take shelter

Synonyms cloistered, covert, hidden, isolated, quiet, remote, retired, secret, sheltered

Related Words lone, lonely, lonesome, reclusive, solitary; private

En Espanol por favor:

"refugio verbo\nshel · cados shel · ter · ING\nDefinición de REFUGIO\nverbo transitivo\n1: la constitución o proporcionar un refugio para: proteger \x3chas llevó un abrigo life\x3e mayoría de los padres quieren proteger a sus hijos del dolor y sadness.to evitar que sus hijos experimentan dolor y la tristeza\n2: para colocar debajo de refugio o protección \x3csheltered sí mismo en una cave\x3e montaña para estar en un lugar que ofrece protección contra el peligro, el mal tiempo, etc\n3: para proteger (ingresos) de los impuestos\nintransitivo el verbo: a refugiarse\n\nSinónimos de clausura, encubierto, oculto, alejado, calma, a distancia, se retiró, el secreto, al abrigo\n\nPalabras relacionadas solitario, solo, solitario, solitario, solitario, privado"

Latin version:

"Integer verb\nter · · · tered shel shel ing\nDefinition of UMBRA\ntransitiva verb\nI: constituere aut parare umbraculum for: ducere volo protego \x3chas life\x3e Most parentes liberos Aenean egestas dolor et dolor et tristitia sadness.to experitur ne liberos\nII: ad manendum sub tutela aut in montem cave\x3e \x3csheltered se esse in loco sit praesidio ex periculo tempestas, etc\nIII: praesidio (vectigal) a tributis\nintransitive verb: ad manendum\n\nSynonyms inclusarum, umbraculum occulta semotus, quies, remote recessisset abscondito latebrae\n\nRelated Words SOLUS, solitarios, lonesome, reclusive, solitarius, privatus"

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I believe I was sheltered most of my life. My Mom hid from us when she was battered. We tended to stay in the backyard and play only with each other, but then again there were so many of us there really wasn't a need to go elsewhere because we were both sides to a team, lol. Also because my older sister used to lock all us younger kids out of the house, tell us not to leave the yard and then not let us back in the house until right before Mom came home. This was done while my Dad was on his usual military tour (see Chapter 3 The Real Victims) after the newest kid was born. Yes, I know, I'm so rudely frank about things. Isn't it fun> We didn't bring other kids home until we were in our teens. And we very rarely spent the night at other kids' homes.

And SECRETS, oh yeah there were secrets. Imagine being twelve and finding out you have a seventeen year old sister who looks just like you. Then again, at thirty, finding out you have another sister who's even older than the one you found at twelve. Head twisters. Then throw in the high heel shoes in the back of the family station wagon, THAT don't belong to your Mom. What about being asleep in your parents' bed and waking up to see a soldier at the end of that bed who looks like your Dad, falling back to sleep then waking up and he's gone and all you get told is your Uncle was here but had to report to duty. NO, He didn't do anything to us, He just watched us sleep. Seems we reminded him of his sister and his Mom, our Grandmother.

Never met either of My Grandmothers. Not a one. Relatives from the maternal and paternal side of the family DID NOT come to visit us. If they wrote, it was only to the parental units. I was in my thirties before I started writing to my cousin Susie, Susie Q was her nickname. And then she died in an auto accident. That was it, a phone conversation and a letter. I didn't meet my gorgeous niece Charity until my Dad died. I never met Melissa or James but I found them on facebook and so many others and will never let them go, not ever. I have so many family members on my networks and the network web just keeps growing and growing and growing. Seems that all of us were denied access to some of us and as adults, we DECIDED that that just won't do.

We, The Mainland Branches of the family have reached across the Pacific and found the maternal family, those cousins who were just as curious about us as we were about them, once we knew each other existed that is. Oh, there were pictures but kids don't care about pictures and as you grow older you push that aside and live the life your in.

I would have liked to have known these cousins as we all grew up. I still want to learn the Hula. I want to teach them the Cotton Eyed Joe, although I am really really rusty. I must find me a Cowboy soon and do some line dancing. As it is now I'm working on a certain Journeyman named John. Oh Behave!!

What I'm trying to tell you is that decisions were made regarding our upbringing and who we were going to share it with, without our consent. Hell most of us didn't even exist when the decisions were made so that means years in the dark before conception and then after. Blah, this is too much to wrap a noodle around. I even discovered sex while playing doctor at home. Not knowing that these things were, in some ways incorrect, the exploration continued outside the family unit.
Man, when I graduated from High School, I experimented with sex beyond kissing, heavy petting, second base and hickies. Way beyond all that!!! Bad Girls are so fun. My only regret was that Gary Rogers was not at hand. Hi Gary, loved kissing you so much in High School. The point is, if I had had a normal environment and examples, not a crazy sister with paranoid schizophrenia who heard she was a product of rape during a fight between the parents, things could have been much different.
I drank because the Dad drank. I smoked because the Parents smoked. I fought because....well you get the picture, I hope.

Anyway, Ms. Galvan, again, mentioned Locus of Control at my last session of Fighting Domestic Violence class and I just had to research it of course. It is a theory mind you, like Darwinism. Julian Rotter first introduced it in the 1950's. I was born in the fifties! Okay I'll stop being acerbic, maybe. But if I've got the gist of it, it refers to a person's basic belief system about the influences that affect outcomes in their lives. There are two types or classifications of people in the theory, the internal and external locus of control. Internal Good. External Bad. Internal, mostly males, or older more seasoned males and females, tend to be successful. People with an internal locus of control believe that they are primarily responsible for the outcomes in their lives. These people tend to be self-reliant and believe that nothing can hold them back except themselves.

Whereas those with an external locus of control believe that outside forces affect their ability to succeed. They tend to stake their future on things such as fate, luck, god or society. Because they believe they have very little personal stake in their future, they tend to put less effort forward on most projects. thus they are generally less successful in fields of education and career than those with an internal locus of control.

Source: www.thewisegeek.com Written By: Josie Myers, Edited By: Bronwyn Harris
Copyright Protected: 2003-2011 Conjecture Corporation

I started out at one end of this spectrum and now travel the other end. As for successful, I feel that I have successfully traveled through quite a bit of violence and abuse and am now ready to stand up not only for my rights but rights of anyone who shares the same afflictions, especially children. I have always felt that children aren't given a fair shake, deal, advantage in this cruel world. After my shelter experience, it is an even firmer belief.

I'm going to give you a web address where you can take a variations of Rotter's questionnaire. No cheating, you only rob yourself and shame shame isk tsk!!

http://faculty.darden.virginia.edu/clawsonj/COURSES/PCAP/OB-786%20D4%20Locus%20of%20Control.pdf

And just because you'll want to know and because I like to brag, I scored an 85. I must research grandiosity, I'm sure it applies to me. I'm getting hungry and that salad I had earlier is no longer sustaining me. I'm gonna go wander around this here mall and see what all the music is about.

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